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CONFUSED.

There’s this guy. he was a stranger but we were like childhood friends(whatever). then we became friends coz our parents are friends. then. a year passed he decided to talk to me. for some reason i really didn’t open up much to him. so i played this game with my friend my friend said that, this guy liked me and at the end of summer he would tell me that. and i said naaaah! he’s just playing around. making me feel like i’m interesting. so we made this deal that when this guy tells me he likes me, i’ll treat him. but if not. my friend will treat me. So I played along. 

Days went by, he calls me up just to make sure i’m awake. we sleep at the same time. we skyped one time. He always tells me on how his day went. i tell him about mine. when he’s sad i try to cheer him up. then. when we finally got the chance to see each other again he visited me here at our house. i was surprised at the effort but anyway it was just a visit. the next day was he’s birthday. So i decided to call him up and greet him around 12 mn. He was surprised and happy? which made me happy. he celebrated his birthday at our house. he brought some ice cream so we had an ice cream party. after that it was saturday, his real birthday celebration. my family was invited, so we went. I met his best friends a lot of boys though. hahaha. we had dinner. we sat together. talked about how i really eat a lot. hahahaha. then we drank wine. i think he was a bit tipsy. then we dance a little. at the end of the night we hugged. i felt special which i thought was wrong. after that everything changed. it became a chat a day. to a one text. to a NO text or CHAT at all. I get it that he ditched our plans on watching IRON MAN 3. but as a girl i still want an explanation coming from him, not from other people. i don’t hold grudges. I just want an explanation. is that too much to ask. 

Here’s the deal. i blogged about this coz i really feel something about this guy. But I really want this wondering to end. I’m gonna forget this happened and not think about it anymore. 

So weeks will pass and we’ll see how it goes…….. 

blogging is a way of letting things out of your mind so that you don’t overthink? agree??? haha. I used to think blogging was just a way of letting people know what you feel but then i realized it’s not always that way. we blog about our thoughts because we want things out of our mind and out into words. because the worst feeling is knowing what you feel and not finding words in expressing them or not knowing what you feel but finding words to express them. i really don’t know if i make sense but… these are random thoughts. 

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